[Zack feels a little bad for a moment. He heard that sigh and knows he's letting down Sephiroth and though he shouldn't care he still does. It's ingrained in him to care. He frowns himself as they start their walk back home. He keeps trying to start a conversation, to apologize but he doesn't say anything. Instead he just keeps his head down but keeps close to Sephiroth.
When they finally reach the house Zack opens the door and he kicks off his shoes at the entrance, turning to Sephiroth once more. For once when he looks at him his gaze is closer to that puppy gaze he once had back home, eyes full of concern for the other man.] I'm sorry I stopped your run short. I'll make it uo to you somehow. There is patchs gym we can try. Its not the simulation rooms but its a normal gym, we could at least maybe do a workout there. There is also the forest we could maybe go fight in sometime but I don't have a weapon so...if you wanted to go alone I guess it'd be okay as long as you tood me about it....maybe.
[He's trying to offer some kind of compromise though the idea of it is clearly making him uncomfortable. He rubs at his arm and looks away, unable to look at Sephiroth.] um...so yeah. I'm gonna shower now then okay?
[The walk in silence is typically unusual for Zack, yet it seems more common here, just adding more questions and weight onto just what had happened to make Zack like this. Yet it also gives time for Sephiroth to silently study him, picking out those differences in Zack's movement, how he holds himself. Which just screams of someone struggling with himself. Just how bad had it been? Whatever had happened? The fact Zack didn't even act this way about Angeal and Genesis leaving. There had still been hope in him then.
Yet not now.
Returning to the house, Sephiroth paused in removing his own shoes as Zack spoke, giving him his full attention, the cool expression still in place. Before breaking into something closer to a real smile of his, more warmth behind it than the normal mask of a smile he wore.] I'll take you up on that later then. [Seems he hold no hard feelings for... whatever this all had been.
Sephiroth then waving a few fingers, as if to dismiss Zack.] Go on then. [Kneeling down to untie his own shoes, considering what to do while he waits for his turn to shower afterwards.]
[Zack hesitates for a moment as Sephiroth gets to his knee. He watches him and could easily just go take his shower and be done with this conversation that was already making him uneasy but he doesn't. Instead he bends down and takes over Sephiroth's untying of his shoes for him, not meeting his gaze as he does so. The tips of his ears turn red but he focuses on his task as he helps take those boots of his off, wanting to be helpful.]
You...Um...keeping your hair up looks nice on you. Might help you find a partner for quota.
[His words come out a little mumbled as he starts to work on the next show, gloves hands trying notnto linger too long on those long legs of his once hes done with unlacing the boots. He does look up to meet that teal gaze and he gets lost in it for a moment, his own lips parting and violet mako eyes softening as he looks at those handsome features so close. Sephiroth really is perfect, not a blemish on him, perfect face perfect kissable lips, perfect everything. He almost forgets to breath for a moment and finishes the boots. He leans in to pat Sephiroth's head, unable to feel that silky hair through the thick worn leather of his gloves.]
There all done. At least I help sometimes, right?
[He smiles and it's the first one he's had on his face since Sephiroth has returned to him. It isn't the big smiles Zack used to have but it's genuine and honest and his eyes do sparkle a little with it. There is still parts of that puppy left, just very lost.]
[It's a strange little comfort. Almost makes Sephiroth want to reach out and pet Zack's head as he unties his shoes, a twitch of a smile at the corner of his lips as he recalled how Genesis called Zack a puppy. And how Zack would dislike that. Then remembering Genesis is gone. So is Angeal. And Zack seems to be battling between hating him and clinging to him. Those thoughts resettling Sephiroth's subtle expressions before Zack lifts his head again.
An exhale of amused breath through his nose, a very subtle laugh as Zack is the one to pet him instead. How strange. And yet it is nice to see that smile return to Zack's face, feels more like himself. Sephiroth allowing a hint of that real smile of his to show a he stands.] Yes, Zack, you're very helpful, as usual. [Enthusiastic, loud, far from subtle. But always helpful. Always willing to try.
And yet... being so earnest to help, so open and happy. It really makes Sephiroth want to tease him. As well as being a little serious about the topic. The point of this place, it seems. The slightest of brow raises as he crosses his arms over his chest, looking over Zack as if to size him up.] Yet not willing to help me on the main matter? Of the quota we're required to meet?
[Zack sees that smile, a genuine one directed towards him. His heart skips a beat, that gaze directed at him does things to him and his face just gets a bit more of a red tone to it before Sephiroth even drops that bomb of a question on him. He had always looked up to the man, maybe even liked him as a crush in the past and this past time together since his arrival had only brought those memories back despite his other memories of the man. He often caught himself just watching and staring at him when he thought Sephiroth wasn't paying attention, admiring how handsome he was.
The little compliment had him glowing for a moment, always a sucker for being praised even the littlest of praise. He smiled more at it but that smile soon turned to shock when he heard Sephiroth's next words. He quickly averted his attention and the tips of his ears turned red he was blushing so hard. ] THATS...I...WE...
[He tried to get the words out but couldn't and so he just instead tried to exit the conversation and make his way to the bathroom hoping Sephiroth would let him.]
[Nice try, Zack, but this isn't over, and you're not moving fast enough to get away. Sephiroth grabbing Zack by the wrist, pinning it against the closest wall as he steps into the other's space, forcing him back against that same wall as he drops his head down towards Zack's.]
That's not a suitable answer, Zack. I know you're wanting to avoid me, but aren't you also supposed to help me with this? Not just telling me to pretty myself up to try and lure someone in. To actually help me. [Eyes narrowing ever so slightly, that smirk turning a touch more wicked and teasing, having well caught that blush Zack had been trying to fight off. Interesting. Funny. Very interesting.]
Am I really that undesirable to you? [Well knowing he's being mean to Zack right now, yet it's too funny not to.]
[He tries to walk away but the next thing he knows his backs against the wall and he's face to face with those deadly green eyes. His heart starts pounding in his chest the moment they lock eyes, stunned for a moment and shocked. He's held people like this against a wall, not many but some but never been in this position himself. A heat he can't really explain runs through him as he tries to find somewhere on Sephiroth to focus that isn't his deadly eyes that make his heart anxious or those lips that make him question everything. He ends up just looking at his neck instead, at the plain collar hanging around his pale neck.]
You have it all wrong. I'm doing you a favor, I don't think I'm the one you want.[He bent his knees and used some force to get out of the hold and around Sephiroth. Once he was he used some force to push Sephiroth face first against the wall and grabbed his arms and held them against his back in a hold. He knew he couldn't hold Sephiroth like this long so he leaned in behind him and kissed some of his exposed neck and the tip of his ear.]
I don't think you'd want more of this Sephiroth. Not with me. The people you want aren't here, so find someone else. I had to learn that too. [He let go after that, still as red if not redder in the face then he was before.]
[That. Is not what he's expecting. From Zack Fair. Ever.
Zack was trained. He's a First Class SOLDIER. He's incredibly capable. But Sephiroth is not expecting to be on the business side of it. And yet he finds himself face first against the wall, eyes widening in surprise before resettling, gaze shifting to the side to try and see Zack's movements as his arms are held behind his back. No need to fight. No reason to. Allowing that hold to stay. To see what happens. And those kisses that follow are... confusing. Should they be? He's not sure. That blushing he had somehow caused with Zack had been amusing, but not much thought beyond just teasing him about it.
Actually having touch like this? It's... he's not sure how he feels about it. Not just because it's Zack, but because... it's happening.
As Zack lets go of him, those words of his stay in his head, bouncing around, trying to find a place to settle. And they sting with each impact that lands. Because it's true. Having Zack here helped soften everything. But he still was lacking. Not because of who he was. But because of who he wasn't. Who was missing. Who had been missing for awhile now. Losing Angeal and Nemesis like that. It hur-
No. Stop. No space for that. Stop.
Sephiroth leaving Zack to step back, staying near the wall, forehead resting against it as he lets his eyes close. Trying to compose himself again. Just for a moment. Just to push it all back down. And carry on. Even if it's just to find some sort of answer for right now.] Right. [...that's about the best he can do right now.]
[He sees that look and for a moment he feels pity for the man who burned and murdered a whole village, the man who'd once been his friend. He let's Sephiroth be at that and turns to go to the bathroom this time, eyes glowing in the morning darkness of his dimly lit home.] I'm sorry it's just me here. I wish they were here too. I miss them too.
[He heads to the bathroom then and closes the door. The shower gets turned on and once the running water is on he can feel his body growing heavy and his eyes starting to tear up. When was the last time he'd cried over Angeal? Over Genesis and Kunsel and Essei and Sebastian? He missed so many people, his mom and dad, Aerith who he now knew was gone in his own world too. He could never see them all again yet the only one he could see now was Sephiroth and some of the Turks. Was this his karma for Nibelheim? He started to undress as tears fell down his face, the guilt of it all getting to him once more. ]
[As Zack leaves to clean up, Sephiroth takes a time to just stand and breathe. Collect himself. Ground himself to now. And that helped. A reminder that nothing really changes, even in such a strange place like this.
Just keep moving forward. No questions. Just act.
And right now that action... is to wait for his turn in the shower. Sephiroth letting out a long exhale as he moves to clean up after them, sorting their shoes, moving to put things away, somehow spending the time while he waits for Zack to be done.]
[He's in the shower for awhile, just in there letting the hot water drip down his back as he leans against the wall of the shower. Tears drip down his face and mix with the water from the showr that hits his face as he thinks of memories of Angeal, of Kunsel, of Aerith and Cloud. He thinks of all those not here and more tears start to fall down his face. His sobs are soft, muffled by the sound of the water running though with the SOLDIER advanced genetics He's unsure if Sephiroth might hear him and he's not fully thinking of that either.
When his mind does wander back to Sephiroth and those kisses he left on his pale skin he thinks back of how warm to the touch he'd been. His sterile scent that's always been Sephiroth's mixed with that familiar scent of mako energy and home and though he's still upset his body starts to feel a little heated. It wouldn't be the first time he'd have to touch himself to Sephiroth since they'd contracted but usually that was at night when he was sure the man was asleep and in his own room, not awake and waiting for a shower. The fact he knows Sephiroth is nearby sends a thrill of excitement that makes his cock harder and also question himself as he strokes himself using the water from the shower as lubrication. It's pathetic, he's pathetic to be doing this about someone who doesn't want him and who he isn't sure what he wants from them still. He's still angry with Sephiroth but he can't deny those stolen glances he keeps taking of him, the way his lips upturn ever so slightly when he's teasing Zack and how full they are. He was so tempted to kiss him earlier. His mind plays tricks on him, wonderinf what those lips would look like around his cock. He strokes himself faster, biting his bottom lip and splitting it as he tries to picture that image in his head. He could never imagine Sephiroth ever disheveled, he's too perfect but just the image of him bear his cock has his knees weak and Zack quickly cums against the opposing wall and his hand. His eyes glow brighter as he makes sure to wipe any evidence away and wash off, not realizing his bottom lip is split now.
When he gets out of the shower his eyes are red rimmed and his bottom lip is bruised and cut. He wears a bathrobe to cover himself out of the shower as he passes by Sephiroth.]...all yours. Sorry I took so long.
[Whether Sephiroth's hearing picks any of this up or not, he's choosing to ignore it. To keep it out of sight and private for Zack. Eventually... he does run out of things to distract himself with, finding himself at a loss for what to do next as he waits. In saying, that he didn't really get a good sweat going, was just getting started. Maybe a shower wasn't needed. Maybe all he needed was a change of clothing!
This results in him mid changing as Zack steps out, shirtless and working on picking out some other pieces of clothing to change into as the bathroom door opens. He gazing over at Zack as this changes his plans, able to shower instead. Before pointing to his own lip. A silent tell on what Zack has done to himself.]
[His normally more subdued but still glowing violet eyes have brighter hints of mako in them when he comes out of the shower, he's glowing and had it been anyone he's slept with they might be abke to pick up on those changes to Zack's eyes and what it means. For Sephiroth who hasn't had that time with Zack or for all he knows might not at all with anyone yet he might not even know they can do that when they're aroused. At least he got his arousal taken care of before he left the shower.
He gives Sephiroth a confused look when he points to his lip, thinking the man wants something on his own lips so instead of checking on his own lip he leans in thinking Sephiroth was asking for a kiss and pecks him on the cheek. He didn't know why the man was asking for it but he did anyway and when he pulls back he sees a hint of blood against pristine pale skin and panics.] W-Whoa wait!
[He grabs Sephiroth's face in his hand, holding him by his cheek and tries to wipe away the blood he got on his cheek. Once it's gone he looks him over and only then does he really realize that Sephiroth was shirtless and he was so close to him and holding his face.]...I...um....sorry...
[That. Was. Not. Wha- sigh. Sephiroth closing his eyes as Zack plants that kiss on him, muscles flexing in his jaw and he grits his teeth. Not out of anger.
But out of trying not to laugh.
Thinking he got control over himself again, Sephiroth peeks his eyes open in time to find Zack realizing the situation, only to be grabbed and his cheek scrubbed at to get the blood off. His eyes slamming close again, brows furrowing. Please. Zack. Stop. He doesn't want to laugh about this, but you're making it near impossible not to.
Thankfully Zack releases him again, Sephiroth able to take a step back and clearing his throat before speaking, making sure he's back to his normal tone.] Do you want to clean up your mouth before I use the shower?
[Zack quickly shakes his head at the suggestion and makes sure not anymore of his blood is on the man's perfect face before letting go of him. He stepsb away and immediately looks away from him in embarrassment.]
No! You can go and wash it off, I'll clean it after I hogged it long enough. [His voice almost cracks as he speaks and then he runs off to his room before Sephiroth can stop him to get changed. He changes into something casual, just a pair of jeans and a plain black shirt as he tries to dry off his hair. It's always a mess to air dry but the dryer is in the bathroom so he has to wait for sephirogh to finish before he can dry it.]
[Hm. Sephiroth watching Zack as he scurries off, touching a couple of fingers to where Zack had kissed him. Before moving into the bathroom to wash up. Strange. So very strange. Having to get used to being the target of Zack's enthusiasm and affection, even more than before, and in a different way. Or not completely, not for the requirements of this place. So just where did he stand with Zack?
It's all rather confusing to him. He needs more information. About this entire place, his requirements.
About Zack.
Sephiroth's own shower is much shorter than Zack's, stepping back out and realizing he didn't bring any clothing to change into with him, and just wrapping a towel around his hips. Today was off to a strange start. Zack seems in a mood, Sephiroth unsure if to spend time with him or continue looking into how this City ran. He did need a job. Something to do. And more research. Hm. He needed plans. Without much thought to how he looks right now, he steps out of the bathroom, planning to head back to his room to change. Ah, right, Zack needed the bathroom again after him.] I am done with the bathroom, Zack.
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When they finally reach the house Zack opens the door and he kicks off his shoes at the entrance, turning to Sephiroth once more. For once when he looks at him his gaze is closer to that puppy gaze he once had back home, eyes full of concern for the other man.] I'm sorry I stopped your run short. I'll make it uo to you somehow. There is patchs gym we can try. Its not the simulation rooms but its a normal gym, we could at least maybe do a workout there. There is also the forest we could maybe go fight in sometime but I don't have a weapon so...if you wanted to go alone I guess it'd be okay as long as you tood me about it....maybe.
[He's trying to offer some kind of compromise though the idea of it is clearly making him uncomfortable. He rubs at his arm and looks away, unable to look at Sephiroth.] um...so yeah. I'm gonna shower now then okay?
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Yet not now.
Returning to the house, Sephiroth paused in removing his own shoes as Zack spoke, giving him his full attention, the cool expression still in place. Before breaking into something closer to a real smile of his, more warmth behind it than the normal mask of a smile he wore.] I'll take you up on that later then. [Seems he hold no hard feelings for... whatever this all had been.
Sephiroth then waving a few fingers, as if to dismiss Zack.] Go on then. [Kneeling down to untie his own shoes, considering what to do while he waits for his turn to shower afterwards.]
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You...Um...keeping your hair up looks nice on you. Might help you find a partner for quota.
[His words come out a little mumbled as he starts to work on the next show, gloves hands trying notnto linger too long on those long legs of his once hes done with unlacing the boots. He does look up to meet that teal gaze and he gets lost in it for a moment, his own lips parting and violet mako eyes softening as he looks at those handsome features so close. Sephiroth really is perfect, not a blemish on him, perfect face perfect kissable lips, perfect everything. He almost forgets to breath for a moment and finishes the boots. He leans in to pat Sephiroth's head, unable to feel that silky hair through the thick worn leather of his gloves.]
There all done. At least I help sometimes, right?
[He smiles and it's the first one he's had on his face since Sephiroth has returned to him. It isn't the big smiles Zack used to have but it's genuine and honest and his eyes do sparkle a little with it. There is still parts of that puppy left, just very lost.]
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An exhale of amused breath through his nose, a very subtle laugh as Zack is the one to pet him instead. How strange. And yet it is nice to see that smile return to Zack's face, feels more like himself. Sephiroth allowing a hint of that real smile of his to show a he stands.] Yes, Zack, you're very helpful, as usual. [Enthusiastic, loud, far from subtle. But always helpful. Always willing to try.
And yet... being so earnest to help, so open and happy. It really makes Sephiroth want to tease him. As well as being a little serious about the topic. The point of this place, it seems. The slightest of brow raises as he crosses his arms over his chest, looking over Zack as if to size him up.] Yet not willing to help me on the main matter? Of the quota we're required to meet?
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The little compliment had him glowing for a moment, always a sucker for being praised even the littlest of praise. He smiled more at it but that smile soon turned to shock when he heard Sephiroth's next words. He quickly averted his attention and the tips of his ears turned red he was blushing so hard. ]
THATS...I...WE...
[He tried to get the words out but couldn't and so he just instead tried to exit the conversation and make his way to the bathroom hoping Sephiroth would let him.]
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That's not a suitable answer, Zack. I know you're wanting to avoid me, but aren't you also supposed to help me with this? Not just telling me to pretty myself up to try and lure someone in. To actually help me. [Eyes narrowing ever so slightly, that smirk turning a touch more wicked and teasing, having well caught that blush Zack had been trying to fight off. Interesting. Funny. Very interesting.]
Am I really that undesirable to you? [Well knowing he's being mean to Zack right now, yet it's too funny not to.]
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You have it all wrong. I'm doing you a favor, I don't think I'm the one you want.[He bent his knees and used some force to get out of the hold and around Sephiroth. Once he was he used some force to push Sephiroth face first against the wall and grabbed his arms and held them against his back in a hold. He knew he couldn't hold Sephiroth like this long so he leaned in behind him and kissed some of his exposed neck and the tip of his ear.]
I don't think you'd want more of this Sephiroth. Not with me. The people you want aren't here, so find someone else. I had to learn that too.
[He let go after that, still as red if not redder in the face then he was before.]
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Zack was trained. He's a First Class SOLDIER. He's incredibly capable. But Sephiroth is not expecting to be on the business side of it. And yet he finds himself face first against the wall, eyes widening in surprise before resettling, gaze shifting to the side to try and see Zack's movements as his arms are held behind his back. No need to fight. No reason to. Allowing that hold to stay. To see what happens. And those kisses that follow are... confusing. Should they be? He's not sure. That blushing he had somehow caused with Zack had been amusing, but not much thought beyond just teasing him about it.
Actually having touch like this? It's... he's not sure how he feels about it. Not just because it's Zack, but because... it's happening.
As Zack lets go of him, those words of his stay in his head, bouncing around, trying to find a place to settle. And they sting with each impact that lands. Because it's true. Having Zack here helped soften everything. But he still was lacking. Not because of who he was. But because of who he wasn't. Who was missing. Who had been missing for awhile now. Losing Angeal and Nemesis like that. It hur-
No. Stop. No space for that. Stop.
Sephiroth leaving Zack to step back, staying near the wall, forehead resting against it as he lets his eyes close. Trying to compose himself again. Just for a moment. Just to push it all back down. And carry on. Even if it's just to find some sort of answer for right now.] Right. [...that's about the best he can do right now.]
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[He heads to the bathroom then and closes the door. The shower gets turned on and once the running water is on he can feel his body growing heavy and his eyes starting to tear up. When was the last time he'd cried over Angeal? Over Genesis and Kunsel and Essei and Sebastian? He missed so many people, his mom and dad, Aerith who he now knew was gone in his own world too. He could never see them all again yet the only one he could see now was Sephiroth and some of the Turks. Was this his karma for Nibelheim? He started to undress as tears fell down his face, the guilt of it all getting to him once more. ]
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Just keep moving forward. No questions. Just act.
And right now that action... is to wait for his turn in the shower. Sephiroth letting out a long exhale as he moves to clean up after them, sorting their shoes, moving to put things away, somehow spending the time while he waits for Zack to be done.]
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When his mind does wander back to Sephiroth and those kisses he left on his pale skin he thinks back of how warm to the touch he'd been. His sterile scent that's always been Sephiroth's mixed with that familiar scent of mako energy and home and though he's still upset his body starts to feel a little heated. It wouldn't be the first time he'd have to touch himself to Sephiroth since they'd contracted but usually that was at night when he was sure the man was asleep and in his own room, not awake and waiting for a shower. The fact he knows Sephiroth is nearby sends a thrill of excitement that makes his cock harder and also question himself as he strokes himself using the water from the shower as lubrication. It's pathetic, he's pathetic to be doing this about someone who doesn't want him and who he isn't sure what he wants from them still. He's still angry with Sephiroth but he can't deny those stolen glances he keeps taking of him, the way his lips upturn ever so slightly when he's teasing Zack and how full they are. He was so tempted to kiss him earlier. His mind plays tricks on him, wonderinf what those lips would look like around his cock. He strokes himself faster, biting his bottom lip and splitting it as he tries to picture that image in his head. He could never imagine Sephiroth ever disheveled, he's too perfect but just the image of him bear his cock has his knees weak and Zack quickly cums against the opposing wall and his hand. His eyes glow brighter as he makes sure to wipe any evidence away and wash off, not realizing his bottom lip is split now.
When he gets out of the shower his eyes are red rimmed and his bottom lip is bruised and cut. He wears a bathrobe to cover himself out of the shower as he passes by Sephiroth.]...all yours. Sorry I took so long.
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This results in him mid changing as Zack steps out, shirtless and working on picking out some other pieces of clothing to change into as the bathroom door opens. He gazing over at Zack as this changes his plans, able to shower instead. Before pointing to his own lip. A silent tell on what Zack has done to himself.]
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He gives Sephiroth a confused look when he points to his lip, thinking the man wants something on his own lips so instead of checking on his own lip he leans in thinking Sephiroth was asking for a kiss and pecks him on the cheek. He didn't know why the man was asking for it but he did anyway and when he pulls back he sees a hint of blood against pristine pale skin and panics.] W-Whoa wait!
[He grabs Sephiroth's face in his hand, holding him by his cheek and tries to wipe away the blood he got on his cheek. Once it's gone he looks him over and only then does he really realize that Sephiroth was shirtless and he was so close to him and holding his face.]...I...um....sorry...
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But out of trying not to laugh.
Thinking he got control over himself again, Sephiroth peeks his eyes open in time to find Zack realizing the situation, only to be grabbed and his cheek scrubbed at to get the blood off. His eyes slamming close again, brows furrowing. Please. Zack. Stop. He doesn't want to laugh about this, but you're making it near impossible not to.
Thankfully Zack releases him again, Sephiroth able to take a step back and clearing his throat before speaking, making sure he's back to his normal tone.] Do you want to clean up your mouth before I use the shower?
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No! You can go and wash it off, I'll clean it after I hogged it long enough. [His voice almost cracks as he speaks and then he runs off to his room before Sephiroth can stop him to get changed. He changes into something casual, just a pair of jeans and a plain black shirt as he tries to dry off his hair. It's always a mess to air dry but the dryer is in the bathroom so he has to wait for sephirogh to finish before he can dry it.]
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It's all rather confusing to him. He needs more information. About this entire place, his requirements.
About Zack.
Sephiroth's own shower is much shorter than Zack's, stepping back out and realizing he didn't bring any clothing to change into with him, and just wrapping a towel around his hips. Today was off to a strange start. Zack seems in a mood, Sephiroth unsure if to spend time with him or continue looking into how this City ran. He did need a job. Something to do. And more research. Hm. He needed plans. Without much thought to how he looks right now, he steps out of the bathroom, planning to head back to his room to change. Ah, right, Zack needed the bathroom again after him.] I am done with the bathroom, Zack.